i am one of those.

“Some people do not have to search, for they find their niche early in life and rest there seemingly contented and resigned.
At times, I envy them but usually I do not understand them…
And seldom do they understand me.
I am one of those searchers.
There are, I believe, millions of us. We are not unhappy, but neither are we completely content.
We continue to explore ourselves, hoping to understand.
We like to walk along the beach; we are drawn to the ocean, taken by its power and unceasing motion, its mystery and unspeakable beauty.
We like forests, mountains, deserts, hidden rivers, and lovely cities as well. Our sadness is as much a part of our lives as our laughter. We are ambitious only for life itself and for anything beautiful it can provide.
Most of all, we want to love and be loved, to live in a relationship that will not impede our wanderings and prevent our search.
We do not want to prove ourselves to others or compete for love.
This passage is for wanderers, dreamers, and lovers who dare to ask of life everything which is good and beautiful.”

top 10 signs you hang out with kids too much.

10. you prefer the Toy Story shapped mac and cheese over regular.
9. you dont even notice when the cartoon network is on...all day.
8. your day revolves around how much you can get done during nap time.
7. you are wearing one of those shape bracelet rubber band things.
6. you have books like "alexander and his no good, very bad, terrible day"....memorized.
5. you know what "icarly" and "diary of a whimpy kid" means.
4. you find yourself cutting your food into tiny, bite-size pieces.
3. there are about 12 shoes in the closet. none of them are pairs and only about half actually belong to your kids.
2. 90% of your phone apps are kids games.
1. you find yourself bribing your friends and husband with cookies or "treats."

kids are wonderful. i love being an aunt :) they definitely change your life.
my sister can relate to all of these im sure. and i can relate to most :)

love quote.

"loretta, i love you.
not like they told you love is, and i didnt know this either, but love dont make things nice-it ruins everything.
it breaks your heart.
it makes things a mess. we aren't here to make things perfect. the snowflakes are perfect. the stars are perfect.
not us.
not us!
we are here to ruin ourselves and to break our hearts and love the wrong people and die. the storybooks are bullshit.
now i want you to come upstairs with me and get in my bed."

ronny cammareri, in moonstruck.

fashionista.

i have been to denmark two times now and with confidence can say that....
a.) i love danish fashion
b.) i have seen the "trends" get made fun of by american magazines or what have you and then...
c.) EVERYONE is wearing them 8 months later.

so for those into "fashion" or trends....listen up. because this is what is cool.

(side-note - if you dont have time to read this or want more information about these 'new' styes - see entire 80's decade)

so here it is (i should be getting paid for this).

-80% of the girls in Scandinavia wear there hair in a high bun. long hair with no bangs, all pulled into a somewhat messy ballerina bun (it helps if your hair is blond and thinner).
-the other 20% have VERY unique styles. non symmetrical cuts. crazy short. the key is confidence.
-attached to their colored ray bans is a sunglass string holder. you know, the kinds from the 80's. i saw pearls. neon strings, and of course i got one is a simple silver chain.
-no girl wears makeup. duh. everyone there is naturally beautiful.
- fanny packs were soooo last year. this year girls carry their money, chap-stick, etc around in a neckless purse. its like a little wallet around your neck. some have diamonds on them. i almost bought a simple black leather one.
- shoes. about 80% of girls and boys (well, with boys its more like 100%) wear converse. they can be high top or low. all colors. but its best if they look worn in. sometimes vans are ok.
- for the other 20% its the leather tie up shoes...some are high top (think combat boots). im not sure what these are called but they have a name.
-socks!! they all wear socks that are above your ankle!!! its crazy. i refused. (i did buy used converse though....)
- jumpers are also sooooo 2009. this year - overall shorts. yep. the faded worn in overalls. like you've been wearing them since...well the 90's. again i almost bought some (lord knows i got rid of mine!)
- the hippy style/indian looking headband around your forehead. (ok....maybe i didnt see a ton of these. maybe tayler and i just think they are cool...and they are!!)
- shirts that are too big/see thru/and you can see your bra.

Now tuck this shirt into your high wasted levis or wrangler shorts. roll up the shorts (if you are cold you can wear black tights under the shorts). wear leather loafer looking shoes with socks. hair in bun. purse around neck. cool glasses. and BAM!

Congratulations. you are almost as cool as a dane.

typical day at roskilde

i wake up panicked. it is probably 110 degrees in our tent and i have on every piece of clothing (plus an eye mask, ear warmers, and the warm jacket that practically fell from heaven and landed directly in front of our tent, thank you jesus). from about 3am to 7am it is freezing. its like the desert or something. who knew denmark was like the desert? but yeah, it gets a bit chilly and apparently tayler and i are too hard core for "matts" or "sleeping bags." we use the traditional layering and cuddling method.

we had gone to bed at 4 or 5am and shortly after that some kid opened up our tent and straight up asked if he could sleep in our tent! with out even taking off my eye mask, and without hesitation....i said 'no.'
come on! freakin' L camp.
after he left i considered calling him back over. perhaps he had a blanket. or a pillow. or something to contribute!
dang it.

every morning, come 8 o'clock i frantically take off my layers, grab my little blanket and walk to the white tent...which is a big tent where people, such as myself, take naps (which is all you really do at roskilde is take a bunch of 3 hour naps here and there). on this particular morning there was a girls choir. All dressed up. They were singing over me, like angles. It was actually pretty soothing, at least it wasnt kids (and when i say kids i mean anyone acting like they are 5...but they are actually 19) squirting me. in the ear. with a water gun. yes this happened during my nap the day before.

Most days swimming in the lake trumps showering and so tayler and i got our swimsuits and made our way over. I was not surprised to see a sign that said "Lake closed due to ecoli."
Plan B. a freezing cold shower, in a metal box, with about 25 other mostly naked people. awesome.

this is roskilde.
and although it all sounds....um...ridiculous.
im sure you are thinking why would anyone in their right mind pay $350 dollars and, in our case, fly half way across the world to camp for a week.
well...you have to see for yourself.
the concerts i saw and the friends i have met and the stories i have come away with are...priceless.

"L" camp

Of course its great that tayler still has benefits and can fly for free, but i just kinda wish she was a flight attendant for skywest. and had the same life and benefits as me :) we woke up at the buttcrack of dawn and said our goodbyes, hoping to just see each other at the copenhagen airport. Well...with standby we tend to hope for the best but expect the worst. my plan a - was to fly out of atlanta. plan b - out of jfk...somehow i ended up in newark. and so did tayler. after a night in new york with a friend. we finally made it on a continental flight first class to cph!!!
Making our way straight to roskilde we thought we would get our tent set up and and settle in and then we could go to the city or what have you. we waited in line. mingled/danced/drank carlsberg with the other 50,000 roskilders and as everyone was relaxing. someone started talking over the PA system. in danish of course. as he finished speaking everyone frantically picked up there stuff and started running into the camping area. the doors had been opened. and if tayler and i didnt grab our stuff and start running with them we would probably get seriously injured. "where is everyone running to?" asked tayler, as we are running, "i have no idea...i think we have to find a place to camp, but i dont know where is good." After running aimlessly for a good while we found an open space next to some good looking fellows and declared our home for the next week.
little did we know that we choose "L" came which tends to be more popular for the crazy teenagers and first time rosklide goers.
im not even kidding, through out the week people sprayed us with beer. peed on our tent. spray painted our tent. and it was not unusual for them to be playing limbo and blasting music at 4am.
needless to say i felt like i was at the kids table at thanksgiving and next year we are definitely camping in the "B" or "C" camp with the adults.

countdown to roskilde

Roskilde Festival is an annual week-long international cultural event offering quality experiences based on modern music and creative kinship.

With its attitude towards environmental issues, humanitarian causes and cultural work, Roskilde Festival reflects and challenges the surrounding society and world.

Roskilde Festival is a boundary-pushing cultural-political manifestation. Roskilde Festival is based on the efforts of an unpaid workforce who focus on all aspects of audience service, quality, creativity and safety.

All profits from Roskilde Festival are donated to humanitarian and cultural work.

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does this mean i can count this as my tithe? ha. yesterday i woke up at 4am for work and on the way to the airport i was checking my facebook. im "friends" with the roskilde page and it says "ROSKILDE SELLING OUT SOON!!!" what!??!? i text tayler immediately. our plan was to just get the tickets when we arrived. never buy anything in advance is my motto. with this job who knows if we will get on all our flights. but we HAVE to go! so i charged it. two tickets for 4,252 danish krona. i went ahead and got a tent too. and also i threw in one hot shower. haha.(ok, well actually it was the only option left!). when the charge went through and the tickets were confirmed i got REALLY excited. i dont care if we have to fly to germany and rent a car...we are committed to this festival. the tickets should be sent in 5-7 days and we were planning on leaving in about 8-9 days. perrrrfeectt.