sometimes i feel like my life is this journey with meaningless destinations. and everywhere i go serves as this temporary setting for the next however many hours of my life. even the people you work with are temporary. in and out of your life. when im home i strive to make somethings in my life consistant...the church i go to or the friends i really care about or the places i run. change is great, but sometimes i just want to be somewhere that feels fimiliar or work with someone i already know.
i went to the infamous westminister mall last week, which used to be the coolest place to shop, but now it is so ghetto. yet we find ourselves still going there. top 5 reasons why: always get a good parking spot. you dont have to look good because you know you wont see anyone you know. always a good going out of business sale. and its close. ok, so there are only 4 good reasons. i had not been to the food court area in probabaly 10 years. but i still have these vivid memories. i would get this oversized slice of pizza everytime. me and my mom and sister would go to that mall a lot. and now it is empty. everything is closed. i felt a little sad. everything from my childhood is different or gone. my house, the bowling alley. and now the food court at the mall.
Andrew Largeman: You know that point in your life when you realize that the house that you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? All of the sudden even though you have some place where you can put your stuff that idea of home is gone.
Sam: I still feel at home in my house.
Andrew Largeman: You'll see when you move out it just sort of happens one day and it's just gone. And you can never get it back. It's like you get homesick for a place that doesn't exist. I mean it's like this rite of passage, you know. You won't have this feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself, you know, for your kids, for the family you start, it's like a cycle or something. I miss the idea of it. Maybe that's all family really is. A group of people who miss the same imaginary place.
-garden state
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